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My mind dizzy try to figure the solution to this; I have we all become so infatuated with numbers that we ourselves have become one. Neh, my emotions and thoughts upon the pages of time and caring are in fact more than this world could ever take from me. Myself; find myself; no, myself, never to falter or stray from what I feel is right. Or know what is right, love, feelings emotions of the soul given to those who deserve it, need it, cherish it, it is theirs to have and enjoy and know that I care for their friendship…

Concrete life is all around us we must look over the top to see the whole picture. Life is hard but at some times the beauty of it is never seen under the footsteps we take. For the rush of our everyday life has consumed our very souls in which passion and love use to be the first we held. We struggle to make our lives whole, yet we search like into the night like a lighthouse looking for a ship to guide to safety.

Life it seems to be more stressed as the hours seem to fade in the dimming light of the night. Shadows of pictures that once where are now flashing on the screens within the halls of my mind. Remembering the light and luxury of those I hold dear to my heart and soul. Passion not yet lost but separated only by the pages of this sheet. Whispers that carry in the wind, that taunts and plays with my body. Tingling caressing the emotions I hold within showing hiding from all those who ask.

My life a mystery shrouded in pain and knowledge of the past and yet so much the present. Love once I have held and yet has walked and faded like the words upon these tears swept pages. Changes, so unnoticeable to all, yet still there, lingering in the air like the smell of a forgotten fragrance which tickles the nose and yet is unrecognizable to the empty mind. Life, what of life is it so hard that we must forget that the structure of society is a tool for our own life. To guide and to care or have we become the tiny ant, who works all year long not to play and not a care for anything.

I stay to myself a lot, and keep within the secrets of life and love, to keep this cruel world out. For this I have created doors and shudders to keep it out, yet it seems to be falling like a great wall around my sanctuary. The doors within my mind clatter like a great wind rattling them wanting in. Hurt of dear friends have sent my emotions in overdrive and fathoming ideas of poor choice and decisions have left my mind totally puzzled. Actions no matter minor seems to have evolved into a wildfire throughout this small little area; Yet to keep burning and not to be extinguished through morals and upright thoughts of others. Thoughts, my thoughts, why, what has happened, why: Is all I can put together.

Confusing, unsettling thoughts, I shall ponder the words I have written to try and find the reasoning and to help others. For if I am confused, I am sure others are as I.

And what of life anymore, confusing tricks of the mind which I can no longer see, the doors in my mind gated and chained for no one to trespass and cause harm to my soul which hides like a child, scared and not knowing where to go from this point on.

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Gomez
02:50 May 07 2024

Dark words. Sometimes people just want to see the world burn. I can't lie sometimes i'm even one of them. It's a big deal having a friends back. Looking out for them. I hope your friends recognize it.

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Earthgrinder
03:12 May 07 2024

It's amazing the battles and wars that are experienced in our minds. All the while facing the world with a calm face. Hope you win your battles and war.

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